I'm late but still, happy new year! May you have a blessed 2013. Not sure who is reading this old blog of mine. 2013 is an important year for me as it will be my last year being a student. I have been in Lasalle for about 4 years ? or 3.5 years? I started from foundation and this year, june. I will end my educational journey happily. I hope. I am afraid to leave LASALLE now although it has been a hell tiring journey for me. I will miss being a student, having all my classmates around gossiping away. Thankful for the caring classmates that i have met in my DIPLOMA/DEGREE studies. This road will not be so easy without you guys. Thanks for all the concern, motivation and encouragement, i really appreciate that. I don't think anyone of them is reading as i seldom gave my link out in the public ever since ..... i don't know when.

It's the 3rd week of 2013? These few days haven't been a good one as someone close is leaving me very soon. It's scary how you are told that your closest Grandma is leaving anytime within this two weeks. I know it's not easy to fight with such virus in your body and i don't know her reason for refusing to do chemotherapy 1-2 months back. I wish she did, perhaps she could live longer with that little percentage to recover fully. Many patients have recover from it so i believe in that. I also understand that she is old and have probably suffered enough but just 2012, she was still strong even with the illness in her. Not until the last few months of 2012, everything changed. This is the first time, someone close to me (really close) is leaving me although i hope and pray for her to live longer. She couldn't even stand up by herself and she's relying on the oxygen tank to pump pure oxygen into her body to fight with the virus. I miss how she was still strong,  always cooking delicious food for us, always talk to me about my relationship, my life and studies. Although i am the only one (between my Sister and a few of my cousins) who wasn't brought up by her most of the time as i was sent to a step mum who didn't really take care of me well. I am always dying to see her when i was young (I don't want to be in my step mum's house) and surprisingly she actually know what happen to me at my step mum's house. She was so angry and even told my parents about it (long story, cut short). She's my closest grandma and have been protecting me all the time. Till now, on her sick bed, she still asked about my studies and relationship. It hurts me a whole lot to see her having the difficulty to talk. I don't know how i should continue, please pray for her.

I love you ahma, forever.
It's 5.22am now, maybe i should sleep.
This is probably one of the post that i type my hearts out in a long while .....